Throughout this job application process, I am constantly surprised whenever I get feedback from my interviewers or my friends about my abilities. I usually underestimate myself and perhaps I do not see the full value and potential that I have. I am often afraid that I am too confident and too egoistic that sometimes I do not trust in my own abilities and potential. Do not think that this is harmless. It is actually harmful. After some time has passed, I feel like the reason that I did not pass BCG, it wasn't because I couldn't do the math in the last round. Rather it was because I believe that I wasn't good enough at math which led me to not be able to do that math. When in fact, it was a simple multiplication problem which I could have easily done had I believed in myself and had more calculation practice.
During the K-Bank scholarship test, the entire test was in Thai. The questions asked about Thai สุภาษิต which I absolutely had no idea about. It asked me to identify the misspelled word in a list of commonly-mispelled words. It was so hard that I felt like I was simply guessing without even thinking. Half-way through the test, I thought to myself maybe I should just give up. Yet, I forced myself to keep trying. (I should have believed in myself). The result was that I was able to pass that test. I still don't know how I was able to accomplish it.
I also believed I wasn't good enough in PTT camp. During one of the interview sessions, my interviewer asked us to private chose the person who we wanted to work with the most. In that moment, I didn't even consider that my teammates would even chose me. I immediately thought they would vote for P'Nan, the person I had voted for. Yet, it turns out that I won the popular vote and got a 'Godji' as a reward. I will look at the Godji and remind myself of this fact.
It is usually after we have accomplished something which we thought was impossible or out of our reach that we realise that what we once thought was so difficult was so achievable and within our reach. It was only a matter of whether we reached out our hand to reach it. So we have to take that leap of faith. Believe that we can do what is 'seemingly impossible' that we can actually do it.
Remember when Tan's dad asked you if it is easy to pass the audition to get into CU Chorus. You told him that the audition is hard for people who cannot do it but it seems easy for those who passed the test. For you, the audition seems easy because you were able to pass it.
"Everything seems impossible until you can actually do it."
Therefore, with everything you do. Whenever you feel helpless. Act like you can. But more than that, believe that you can. Then you may or not be able to do it. But if you believe you can't, you will never believe that you are able to do it.
Be proud of your handwork and effort. Know that your hard work, sweat, and tears have been worth it. They have helped built you into someone worth-knowing and worth-hiring. Be proud of your accomplishments. Believe in yourself. Lastly, trust in your abilities.
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