Why NOT PTT...

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I want the choice in choosing where I want to work, who I want to work for, and what kind of work I do each day. I would like the option of quitting and changing jobs when I see a better exit or rather when I've learned and changed as a person. I don't think that at 22 years old, I am willing to commit 9 years to a program that is going to determine my future.

During my final coaching session, I felt so embarrassed when they gave me the feedback that I avoided the questions about PTT. I couldn't answer when they asked how I can give tangible benefit to PTT. I just couldn't answer it because frankly I just don't care. I don't see the perks of working in PTT. I just don't.

As for now, I would like to jump head on into consulting and give it my best shot. I know that if I worked with PTT, I would always wonder what I could have been, how far I could have gone. Logically, I know that PTT may be the best, most "logical" choice for a "good" future. I mean they're handing me the opportunity to study in one of the best universities in the world and work in one of the largest companies in Thailand. But I don't know. Its just not what I want. Its not what my heart wants.

I don't know, someday I may want to start my own business and that MBA degree won't be more valuable than the 7 years I traded it for, if I had taken that scholarship. One day I may find joy being a consultant, even if I don't take into consideration the compensation I get. One day I may just want to settle for being a wife and a mom, and that MBA won't get me anywhere in being a wife and a mom. There are so many things I don't know that I could want.

Yeah maybe its logical to chose PTT but I know that in my heart, I can't do it. Mentally, I don't want to chose that choice. I just know that I wouldn't be happy. It may be a good life for some people but I don't think that it is the life for me.

So for now, my NOT PTT roadmap is as follows
- Accenture until May 2018
    - perform above expectation in evaluations
    - if not get an offer from MBB -> promotion to consultant within 2019
- MBB from August 2018
- MBA in August 2021